Feel like i'm going through a desert. i feel dry and thirsty. so many things in my head and i just cant express them with words. things are kind of weighing me down, down, and down... family, friends, job, study... sigh.... it all just like .. aahhhhh... (whats wrong with me???)
in moment like this, the only thing i wanna do is being away from everything and everyone..
if my brain were a computer its like you load too many information that it starts to be slow, slow, yes slow and eventually stuck.. nothing works even when you press the F5 button.
The only thing i know is that God is purifying myself.. thats it.. but somehow i feel like i just wanna skip this page of life to the next page or chapter. if my brain is visible through my head then it will be like tangled threads.. really...Sometimes i wish i could just quit and start a new, but whats the point if it will start again and i'll have to go through the same thing over n over again... arrgghh, its suck! God..... help me... I cant handle it!!! Please, help me getting it through...
Things are just not going the way i want...
I wanna complain but i cant.. i know God is doing something great in my life, He's preparing me for something great in the future.. phheww, all i need to do is just be faithful and be strong...
I hate this feeling but this is what I learn earlier this morning … Every time when you want to give up always remember that life is a book written by God. There are sufferings within every page and chapter, but there are also blessings that follow. Life can be hard today but don’t skip the page or chapter just because of the sufferings you go through and miss out on the blessings in them. Also, do not to rush to get into the next page and chapter before you’re ready for the suffering. Wait upon the Lord, He knows exactly when to open the next page and chapter of your life. In the mean time, stay faithful in whatever you’re going through today.
(ISAIAH 40:31)
Well i know its a weird note today but i hope the last paragraph above would be a blessing to you all.
Keep me in your prayer...
_JACK LOLOIN_
