*Sigh...* Dont Skip The Page

I dont know what to write today.. i just dont feel good.. bad mood, bad feel, feeling pathetic, miserable.
Feel like i'm going through a desert. i feel dry and thirsty. so many things in my head and i just cant express them with words. things are kind of weighing me down, down, and down... family, friends, job, study... sigh.... it all just like .. aahhhhh... (whats wrong with me???)
in moment like this, the only thing i wanna do is being away from everything and everyone..

if my brain were a computer its like you load too many information that it starts to be slow, slow, yes slow and eventually stuck.. nothing works even when you press the F5 button.

The only thing i know is that God is purifying myself.. thats it.. but somehow i feel like i just wanna skip this page of life to the next page or chapter. if my brain is visible through my head then it will be like tangled threads.. really...
Sometimes i wish i could just quit and start a new, but whats the point if it will start again and i'll have to go through the same thing over n over again... arrgghh, its suck! God..... help me... I cant handle it!!! Please, help me getting it through...

Things are just not going the way i want...

I wanna complain but i cant.. i know God is doing something great in my life, He's preparing me for something great in the future.. phheww, all i need to do is just be faithful and be strong...

I hate this feeling but this is what I learn earlier this morning … Every time when you want to give up always remember that life is a book written by God. There are sufferings within every page and chapter, but there are also blessings that follow. Life can be hard today but don’t skip the page or chapter just because of the sufferings you go through and miss out on the blessings in them. Also, do not to rush to get into the next page and chapter before you’re ready for the suffering. Wait upon the Lord, He knows exactly when to open the next page and chapter of your life. In the mean time, stay faithful in whatever you’re going through today.

(ISAIAH 40:31)

Well i know its a weird note today but i hope the last paragraph above would be a blessing to you all.

Keep me in your prayer...

_JACK LOLOIN_

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When Jesus is the number ONE

Hi everybody,

Its good to be writing again. I just learned something cool again this week. What a revelation and I just couldn't wait till I can share it with you all. A couple days ago I saw a Christian Program on TV and a pastor was speaking about the value that Jesus gives to those who stand with Him.

It started with the story of Jesus meeting with the first disciples in Luke 5. But before that, the bible says in the end of Luke 4 that Jesus went to a deserted place (most probably to pray) as He always do and then came back to choose His disciples. Some say that Jesus prayed for 12 hours that day before He chose His apostolic team.
This is interesting. Jesus prayed before He chose His disciples, but wait a minute! How come He spent 12 hours of praying for the election of the disciples but end up with poor choice? I mean, look at the people He chose ; Simon who is faster in acting than thinking, and then James and John who were impatient and easily irritated, especially when they asked for fire to come down from heaven. The worse thing about them is they're uneducated persons. What I'm saying is (without being disrespectful to Jesus), I don't need to pray for hours just to end up with poor choice. Look at the people He chose, they were without education.. And the most terrible choice was Judas, a thief. He didn't simply chose a thief but He made him the treasurer. Wow.. I wouldn't do that.

But here I don't want you to see it from my perspective or from any other human's perspective, but let us look from God's perspective.
Look, Jesus is Lord and He must have known who His disciples were before He chose them, but still He chose them. What's behind this choice? We see all through out the Bible God never chose the qualified but He qualifies the chosen. Look at Joseph, he was a slave before God made him a ruler over Egypt, look at Moses, he was stuttered, David was small, but God used them as His wonderful tools.
What makes them a wonderful tool? That's the question!

The bible says that Jesus is the only one. He is the way, the truth and the life, no one can come to the Father except through Him (John 14:6) and He says "Apart of Me you can do nothing".
Jesus is the only one.
The disciples were nothing but fisherman before Jesus called them but look what happened 2000 years later? Those 12 disciples rock the world with the gospel. They were zero (0).
I remember 14 years ago when I received Christ, I was nothing but little kid. I was zero (0), just like the disciples were. But then Jesus called me to serve Him and I responded. So I came and stand beside Him. I was a zero "0" who stood right beside Jesus the ONE "1", and before I knew it we were already 10. And then Jesus called another zero and he stood beside me and we became 100, another zero came and we became 1000. And then I realized that Jesus gives value to all zeros. What I'm saying is, AS LONG AS JESUS IS THE NUMBER ONE, HE WILL GIVE VALUE TO OUR ZERO LIVES! Amen!!!

Friends, I don't know what you're going through. Maybe you've been rejected by your family just like David, maybe you fail in your relationship, or maybe no one is willing to be friend with you, or even you think like your life is a mistake, but this is what I wanna say to you, as long you have Jesus standing right beside you, you are more than accepted, you are loved and highly favored! Just make Him the number one in your life!

I don't care who you are, what you've done or where you've been but this is the truth that applies to everybody's life, "Jesus is there to give value to your life".

Just before you think you are not qualified in God's sight, let me remind you again; Judas was a thief. If God called him, why wouldn't He Call you? Simon denied Him. If God forgave him, why wouldn't He forgive you? Thomas was in doubt, but if God used him, why wouldn't He use you?
The truth is, God never calls the qualified but He qualifies the called!
The secret is simple, make Him your number one. No zero is too small to be used by God.

Knowing this truth, I don't even mind to be the last zero to be picked up by God, because the last zero makes the greatest value. 100.000.000.000.000 is way way way bigger than 10, isn't it?

Make Jesus your number one and see how He transforms you from zero to hero. Halleluya!!!!!!

Let me know if you are blessed and want to respond to Jesus' calling in your life. Let us stand together and show the world how Jesus transforms our life.

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God bless you!

-Jack Loloin-
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Let His love equips you!

October 13th

LET GOD MINISTER TO YOU

John 13:8 "Peter saith unto him, Thou shalt never wash my feet. Jesus answered him, If I wash thee not, thou hast no part with me."

JOHN 13:5-8

Peter's refusal to let Jesus wash his feet came from a knowledge that he was totally unworthy to have the sinless Son of God serve him as a common servant would. Peter was correct in his assessment of his relative worth, but what he missed was that God doesn't minister to us because of our worth but because of His love.

Even though Peter's attitude looked holy and humble, he was actually resisting God's will and committing an act of pride. Pride is not only exalting yourself above what is proper, but also, it can be debasing yourself below what is proper. Pride is simply self-centeredness or being self-willed instead of God-centered and submitted to God's will. Peter should have been humble enough to know that Jesus knew what He was doing and he should have submitted himself to God's will.

Likewise today, some people refuse to let God bless them, thinking they are unworthy of His favor. While it is true that our actions don't warrant God's goodness, a truly humble person will receive the Lord's blessings as an expression of His love and grace toward them. Misguided humility is every bit as damaging as exaggerated pride.

Peter wanted to serve Jesus, but did not want to be served by Jesus. Jesus was telling Peter that unless he received His ministry to him, Peter would be unfit to serve Him. We cannot cleanse ourselves or others. We are totally dependent on the work of God's grace in our lives. Then and only then, are we equipped to minister to others. Before we can be the blessing that we desire to be to God or to others, we have to let God be the blessing to us that He desires to be.

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Eksposisi Bilangan 14:1-9

"JANGAN
BERHENTI DI PERBATASAN!"
Bilangan 14:1-9
 
Ayat 1
·         12
Pengintai mewakili 12 suku Israel
·         Mereka
menangis karena mendengar berita tentang penduduk Kanaan yg menakutkan
·         Tangisan
mereka menunjukkan bahwa mereka lebih berpegang pada perasaan mereka daripada
iman mereka kepada Tuhan
·         Berpegang
pada perasaan bias menjadi dosa
·         Israel
menangisi kekalahan sebelum berperang
·         Israel
sudah berdiri di ambang Tanah Perjanjian
·         10
pasal pertama dari kitab bilangan menulis bahwa org2 Israel sudah dipersiapkan
untuk berjalan sebagai pemenang
·         Mereka
dipersiapkan untuk menjadi pemimpin, imam, diajar bagaimana member, dikuduskan
(dipisahkan), bahkan hadirat Tuhan menjadi jaminan untuk mereka
·         Setelah sekian lama, Tuhan
akhirnya siap memberi apa yang Dia janjikan
·         Pertanyaannya : Apakah anda siap
menerima janji Tuhan?
·         One final battle and they would
inherit the land, but they were not ready!
 
Ayat 2-3
·         Mereka
bersungut-sungut kepada Musa dan Harun
·         Sebenarnya
mereka bersungut-sungut kepada Tuhan, karena Tuhanlah yang member janji dan
membawa mereka ke ambang tanah perjanjian
·         Seandainya kami mati : karena tantangan yang begitu
besar, org2 Israel lebih memilih mati daripada menerima janji
·         Tuhan tidak memaksakan
kehendakNya, tapi memberi kesempatan kepada kita untuk memilih (kisah Raja
Hizkia dan kesaksian Pdt.Julius Bonggo)
·         Kadang Tuhan membiarkan kita
mendapat apa yg kita paksakan padaNya agar kita melihat resiko dari pilihan
kita sendiri
·         "jangan selalu percaya pada
keinginan hati kita" alkitab berkata bahwa hati manusia itu jahat
·         Tuhan
akhirnya membiarkan Israel mendapatkan apa yang mereka inginkan dan katakana
"kematian" dan anak2 mereka menjadi tawanan.
 
 
 
Ayat 4
Bukankah lebih baik kita kembali
saja ke Mesir?
·         10
pasal pertama menulis bagaimana Tuhan menyiapkan mereka untuk memiliki mental
tanah perjanjian, tapi di sini mereka kembali ke mental budak
·         Mereka
menolak proses Tuhan
·         Jangan
salah, yg Israel tolak di sini bukan sekedar janji Tuhan tapi "perjalanan iman"
·         Alkitab
berkata, tanpa iman mustahil seorang bisa menyenangkan Tuhan
·         Mari kita pilih pemimpin baru : ini merupakan pemberontakan
murni. Mereka menolak Musa dan Harun yang merupakan perwakilan dari Tuhan
sendiri (Mereka menolak Tuhan) >>> Penghujatan
·         Mereka percaya bahwa mereka lebih
tahu dari Tuhan.
·         Amsal berkatapercayalah kpd Tuhan dan jangan
bersandar pada pengertianmu sendiri
·         Mereka berkata seorang kepada yg
lain : jangan
salah, ini bukan ide satu org tapi merupakan keputusan bersama
 
Ayat 5-9
·         Musa & Harun : Generasi tua
yg takut akan Tuhan, menangis
dan berdoa karena mereka tahu dampak dari pemberontakan ini.
·         Yosua/Hosea dan Kaleb : Generasi
muda , mengingatkan
Israel pada indahnya tanah perjanjian dan perlindungan Tuhan selama Israel
keluar dari Mesir
·         Merobek baju : Lambang dari perkabungan yg
sangat dalam (biasanya saat ada yg meninggal)
·         WHAT HE PROMISES, HE WILL
ACCOMPLISH
·         WHERE HE GUIDES HE PROVIDES
 
 
--JACK LOLOIN—
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Don’t Stop at The Border!!!

Soooo yeahh… I finally write again. Its been a while huh J
What a hot day today, I feel like melting. I actually am waiting for an answer from an NPO to which I apply for a part time job as translator, so I have some time to write down this thought that I have in mind about God and HIS guidance in my life. Sooooo, lets jump right in to it. J
A couple days ago I read something cool in my devotional time about facing the giant . As I’ve always said,  I’ve been fighting with “giants” in life. Sometimes I feel like I wanna give up but thank God for all your prayers and support. As I mentioned in my last post, I am struggling with my thesis writing and how I feel discouraged listening to my friends’ story about their struggle with their thesis.

NOTE : Do not let others’ story determine your feeling and action!!!!

I’ve always given my ears to listen to things that dull my spirit and enthusiasm and end up believing that the same thing is gonna happen to me. It took sometime till I realized that that is a deception from the devil, especially because I am writing about Bible Translation I believe the devil don’t want me to continue this project so he uses my friends’ story to kill my enthusiasm.
I’ve been praying since last year that my thesis title would be accepted and after going through some rejections it was finally accepted. Praise the Lord. I was so excited and enthusiastic with this. I collected all materials dealing with the title and the Lord has been faithful in helping me doing that. It was when I started to listen to my friends’ complain about their supervisors that I started to feel discouraged. I worried that the thing happened to them is gonna happen to me as well (where actually “you’ll never know till you have tried”) Sooo, my fear was unreasonable. Don’t imitate that, ok! I could have started at anytime but in fact I’ve been a slacker so far. Its been 8 months since I proposed my title.. (what???? I knew that would be your response).  See, how you can turn from a Warrior to a Worrier just because you listen to thoughts that dull your spirit and let those thoughts take root in your mind. It takes the word of God to really pull those thoughts out of my mind. Its simple, the bible says in Philippians 4:8
“Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things.”

In the old testament, God brought Israel from victory to victory, His miraculous help accompanied them all the way from Egypt to Canaan. When Samuel was the Judge of Israel he set a stone between Mizpeh and Shen, called it Ebenezer (Stone of help), saying “thus far / to this point in time the Lord has helped us”
Samuel knew the Lord had done a great work; yet he knew there was much more to be accomplished. So, he knew it was not finished, yet he could say, "Thus far the Lord has helped us." God helps us thus far at a time, and His past work is a pledge of future help. Amen!!!

When Moses sent people to spy the land of Canaan in NUMBERS 13, they came back with a report that there are giants in that land and they are so big. That report caused the people to be scared. The Israelite would have asked “Would this be the land of promise?” How can there be giants in the land that God promised He will give to Abraham and his descendant?
They were at the border of Canaan but they were too scared to step in. Those giants caught them off guard.
They focused too much on the giants, forgetting how far has God lead them.

See, its easy for us to get overwhelmed by the situation in life. Sometimes it may look like giant, but don’t let your situation change your view of who your God is. The Israelites wouldn’t have to be discouraged facing those giants if they just looked back and realized how far had God brought them.

What I’m saying is “What God promised in your life, it is He who will accomplish”. My friends, I don’t know what your problem is, what your giant is, but this what I know : The God that has helped you so far is the same God that will help you facing those giants. Don’t stop at the border!!! Whenever you feel like the giant is way too big for you to face, look at how far has God brought you. We can be as sure as Samuel was when he made  the Lord  his Ebenezer (Stone of help) knowing that HE has helped them so far, HE will help them again. Know this truth my friend, “The Spirit that is in you is bigger than the spirit in this world”. No matter how big your giant might seem to appear, I tell you this truth,  
1John 4:4 You are of God, little children, and you have overcome them, because He who is in you is greater than he who is in the world. 

 OUR GOD IS GREATER!!!!! Can I have amen?
Don’t be discouraged, “WHAT HE GETS YOU TO, HE’LL GET YOU THROUGH!”

Israel now has dwell in their promise land, and that becomes a testimony to the whole world that even giants cannot stop HIM from fulfilling His promise in His people’s lives.

AAAAAAMMMMMMEEEENNNNNN !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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God bless you all

-Jack Loloin-
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Apa yg tumbuh dalam hati anda?

Bacaan Hari ini :

Matius 13:24-25 "Yesus membentangkan suatu perumpamaan lain lagi kepada mereka, kata-Nya: 'Hal Kerajaan Sorga itu seumpama orang yang menaburkan benih yang baik di ladangnya. Tetapi pada waktu semua orang tidur, datanglah musuhnya menaburkan benih lalang di antara gandum itu, lalu pergi."
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Alkitab memberitahu kita bahwa Firman Tuhan adalah benih yang bila ditanam di dalam hati kita, berkembang ke dalam panen berkat Tuhan yang telah persiapkan untuk kita.
Tetapi jika kita mau mengalami semua yang telah Tuhan siapkan bagi kita, kita harus merawat kebun rohani kita dan mencabut semua lalang seperti yang akan kita lakukan di sebuah kebun sesungguhnya.
Apa itu lalang?
Sakit hati, kepahitan dan sikap tidak mau mengampuni yang ditaburkan oleh musuh.
Dan seperti lalang liar secara alami dapat tumbuh sangat cepat, jika kita membiarkan lalang rohani ini, mereka akan segera bertumbuh dan menghancurkan benih baik yang kita tumbuhkan dalam hidup kita. (Lihat Matius 13:25)

Saya ingat suatu waktu di awal pernikahan kami, Joel dan saya sedang mengalami perselisihan.
Tidak ada cara yang membuat kami mau saling bertatap muka.
Perasaan saya terluka, dan saya sangat frustrasi.
Tapi Joel, di sisi lain, tidak melihat perselisihan kami sebagai masalah besar dan sudah bosan membicarakannya.
Jadi untuk menenangkan saya dan untuk mengakhiri pertengkaran, dia dengan setengah hati berkata, "Maafkan aku".
Itu cukup baik baginya, dan dia pergi keluar untuk melakukan bisnisnya.
Tapi saat saya berjalan ke ruangan lain dan menutup pintu, saya berbalik dan langsung menjulurkan lidah kepadanya dalam kemarahan.
Mungkin itu terlihat seperti perbuatan yang tidak sepenuuhnya salah, namun bahkan dengan frustrasi, saya tahu itu tidak sopan.
Setelah beberapa menit perenungan, saya menyadari bahwa saya tidak bisa membiarkan rasa tidak hormat pada suami saya mengambil akar dalam hati saya, dan saya harus menyelesaikannya dengan cepat.

Jadi saya berjalan kembali mendatangi Joel dan mengatakan kepadanya bahwa saya mencintainya dan menghormatinya... meskipun dia salah.
Joel hanya tersenyum dan berkata, "Aku tahu kamu akan sadar".

Ingat, jika Anda mulai menunjukkan rasa tidak hormat dalam hubungan Anda bahkan dalam hal kecil, seperti lalang, hal itu segera akan memanifestasikan dirinya dalam menampilkan sesuatu yang lebih besar.
Ketika Anda membiarkan sakit hati untuk berlama-lama dan tumbuh, mereka akan menjadi isu besar yang menekan dan melemahkan hubungan Anda.
Saya mengakui bahwa sikap menjulurkan lidah -- meskipun sepertinya tampak sepele -- adalah menanam benih kebencian dalam hati saya sendiri, dan saya tidak ingin menuai panen semacam itu di masa depan kami.
Sekarang, saya berhati-hati untuk cepat memaafkan dan tidak membiarkan lalang berlama-lama di dalam hati saya.

Hari ini, jika Anda melihat lalang kepahitan, sakit hati atau sikap tidak mengampuni berlama-lama di dalam hati Anda, pilihlah untuk mencabut mereka dengan mengampuni!
Masa depan Anda terlalu penting, dan hubungan Anda terlalu penting.
Jangan biarkan musuh menipu Anda dengan menanamkan bahwa mereka pola pikir yang merusak dapat dibenarkan.
Pilih cara Tuhan.
Mencabut semua lalang dan membiarkan Firman-Nya untuk berkembang di dalam hati Anda!
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Bacaan Alkitab Setahun :
Yesaya 4-5; Efesus 3
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Jangan biarkan lalang-lalang berakar dalam hati Anda, jika Anda merasakannya dalam hati Anda, segera pilih sikap mengampuni dan melakukan Firman Tuhan.

(Diterjemahkan dari Hope for Today by Victoria Osteen)

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